Why I Committed Suicide - a novel by sam paul
What would break YOU down?
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He always considered himself predestined to succeed. Growing up white, upper-middle class with enough athletic ability to be good looking and an IQ off the charts practically guaranteed it. The only things missing from his life were distracting challenges and real love. Happiness. His life was wandering through college when he met Jenifer and she turned his world upside down. She was more than his equal, a woman who could complete him. What he didn’t know was that their passion would take him down a dark path of discovery, malaise and prison.
Why I Committed Suicide starts as a casually rambling journey infused with an explosive surge of blossoming love. Written in the mode of On The Road meets Basketball Diaries with a little more fun, pain and real life. People want to know who and what part of love could break down a man so much that he would attempt to remove himself from existence. You are probably reading about this book because you are smarter than the people around you. Your friends don’t understand how this makes you feel and maybe you secretly understand or worry about your own suicidal thoughts. Maybe you just want to know more without raising red flags; maybe you just don’t give a fark anymore. Some people want to know how close they are to their own edge. I hope this book can help pull some of them back.
This novel is intended for young people who have experienced (or want to experience) the nitty-gritty of life and can relate to the chaos and aftermath of extreme experiences.
It's real.
It's intense.
It's the stuff even your best friend won't tell you from their past. You won't be able to put this book down until you've taken in the content of each and every page.
Did you like:
- Perks of Being a Wallflower
- Go Ask Alice
- On The Road
- Fight Club
- Prozac Nation
- Girl, Interrupted
- The Catcher in the Rye
- Memoirs of a Geisha
If you did, then you are really going to enjoy
Why I Committed Suicide too!
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FREQUENTLY ASKED QUESTIONS:
Why such an awful sounding title to a love story?
That's because it's not entirely a love story. Love is merely the initial catalyst for the character. The motivation toward attainment and the embodiment of what Sam thinks will fulfill his life. Love can be beautiful and flowery but love can turn hard, brutal and hateful even when it's pure.
The title for this book came about because I could think of no better way to summarize the climax of the muti-layered plot points and chartacter development issues that occur throughout the entire book. The title helps the book transcend being classified as a love story.
Why don't you want any friends, family or co-workers to read your book?
Open Letter From the Author - Sam Paul
Hey Everyone,
After months of sending out query letters to agents and publishing houses, getting hundreds of rejection letters and many suggestions to change the title of this book to something more family oriented before even being considered to be considered for publication, my book is on the market!
It is my hope that if you found this site, you are interested in reading and perhaps even purchasing my book. Please follow the links I have posted and know that I appreciate your support and enthusiasm, this was not an easy tale to tell. That being said, if you are a friend, family member or co-worker please know that I appreciate your support - but this book is not really for you guys. This book represents a fractured caricature of a person I knew more than ten years ago, reading and associating this persona with who I am today would be a very grave mistake.
It is worth noting that all names in this story have been changed. Partly because this is mostly a non-fiction and semi-autobiographical period of my young adult life. The amazing wonders and horrors of entering college, finding and losing love are all real. Mostly. Thanks for your support!
- sam paul
What does 'Le Petit Mort' mean anyway?
I intended the original title of Why I Committed Suicide to be Why I Committed Suicide or Le Petit Mort. Alas, too many people suggested my secondary title Le Petit Mort took too much away from the character of the book. If you look around in the itty-bitty letters you might find it in there a time or two - but the original intention of the story shifted and the second title became less important. I still have a place for it in my heart though.
Because you asked - "Le Petit Mort" is a French expression for 'the little death'. It's a sexual double entendre' referring to the fact that men die a little bit everytime they make true love to a woman.
I purposefully intended to use the term as a bastardized American form of the original phrase. Technically it is not correct. Also, it has been brough to my attention that a woman can technically have a Le Petit Mort. I realize this now and thank you for the e-mails correcting my French.
Esprit de l'escalier!
Sequel News
Why I Committed Suicide
has a sequel?!
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